[(Don't you know it)]

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

â 5:44 AM

i wish the ground could just open up and swallow me....

i wont have to deal with parents, siblings, friends, exams, school work and the future

i really am about to burst...i really hate my family right now and they cant even see it...they are self-centred selfish people who dont hink about other people but themselves...it's ok if i'm unhappy and it's ok if wat i want i dont get as long as they r happy...

i hate going to school...it's just a fucked up far place and i hate wasting 4 hours of my life every day walking to the bus stop, wait for the bus, walk in to school, walk to the bus interchange, wait for the bus and walk in to my house...do my parents even care??!!!obviously not!!!they've made so many empty promises to me i dont trust anything they say anymore...

i hate thinking about the future...it's so hard to try and remain positive and tell urself not to worry that there r enough jobs out there when u graduate and all u get get r gloomy faces who have no hope and doesnt actually help u know...i hate seeing good friends back stab each other and pretend that all is nice and ok on the surface when they r doing unbelievable things to each other without the other knowing...

it's a sad world we live in...i wish i could just disappear...